La Lluvia

Tell me your blue skies fade to grey.

La Lluvia

Wow!

Karma? Karma.

^___^

I am thankful for

-The recovery of my Father. Words cannot explain how eternally grateful I am for his health.

-The health of those I care about, including family, friends, Mini, & Yogi :)

-My home

-My family, whom I love ever so much. They really are what makes me, me.

*Mommy.

*Daddy

*Tony... "the other one."

*Elizabeth..."Dittle Bugg"

*Michael..."da litto bebe."

*Mini... my kittty :)

*Yogi Bear..."Yogurt"

-My education

-The people who have proven that they are my true friends.

*Rebecca Schroeder

*Michael Espejel

*Daniella Hernandez

*Zachary Payne

*So many more.

-My health

-The ability to do the things I love

*Sing

*Act

*Photograph

-My happiness & my strength

-Having the ability to be above those who try to put me down.

-My belief in something bigger than you and I

-Hope

-The doctors who repaired my Daddy's heart, and kept him alive.

-Firemen, policemen, doctors, teachers, & all those who protect us and have our needs at their best interest.

-Our soldiers, who are putting their lives on the line for us all. Though I do not support this war, I do support the troops fighting in it.

*Jaydon Valentine

-The men and women who have inspired me to continue doing what I love and what is right.

-Last, but not least, I am thankful for you. You, who are caring and interested in my well-being and happiness. You, who are reading this and thinking, 'I'm grateful for Sara Falaro.' 

Happy Thanksgiving.

我愛你

Women I love.

"Turns out, I'm a bit of a slut."

-Meryl Streep

Steffi D, in general, is amazing. I'm such a fan of hers.

"I think women rule the world, because they rule men. Manipulating men; that's our job. That's what we're on the planet for."

-Isla Fisher

"Oh, we're going to have a great time." 

-Amy Adams

"I could die happy tomorrow."

-Rachel McAdams

"Multitasking? I can't even do ONE thing at once."

-Helena Bonham Carter

"Every woman has a story."

-Tyra Banks

"I'm a human being and I fall in love. And sometimes, I don't have control over every situation.

-Beyonce

"I find the same thing sexy in a man now as I always have; humor. I love it when they are funny; it's to die for."

-Diane Keaton

"Tomorrow, you might get a phone call about something wonderful, and you might get a phone call about something terrible."

-Regina Spektor

"I suppose I should have stayed in my basement, playing concerts for my dolls all of my life."

-Ingrid Michaelson

力量；信念；愛；霍普

Well, so what. I'm still a rock star. I've got my rock moves, and I don't need you. And, guess what? I'm having more fun. And now that we're done? I'm going to show you tonight. I'm alright; I'm just fine. You're a tool. So, so what. I am a rock star. I've got my rock moves. I don't want you tonight. :)

Where'd you go?

I'm overdramatic? I'm only interested in myself? I'm too much? Talking about me behind my back and telling everyone about my personal life? Making my junior year 100 times worse? 

Some friends. :(

How could you not be here for me? I have always been there for you. I've always defended you. I don't ask you for a lot. I usually keep my problems to myself. But this has just been something I couldn't hide; something I couldn't keep bottled up. And where are you? Nowhere to be found. But, you know what? That's fine. That's your decision. But don't expect me to feel sorry for you when you come crying to me, like it's MY fault that I'm upset at you. It's not my fault. You should've been here. You should've understood. Instead, you just kicked me out. That was wrong. You were wrong. And if you can't understand that? Oh well. 

How's this for overdramatic?

這是事實，不是小說，首次在年。

Hope is drizzling onto my skin

It's raining. Grey skies, puffy silver clouds with no devious gaps, that desperately try to let in some sunshine; the world is lovely right here and now. Every bad day, painful experience, heartbreaking event, embarrassing occurrence, or disappointing situation can be erased with a rain drop. I think Regina Spektor said it best, when she sang, "Raindrops are falling on my head, but that doesn't mean that I am dead. I do not know, where does it go, when it goes? Suddenly though, every thing's slow and I miss you so. In a town that's cold and grey, we will have a sunny day." I'm head over heels in love with the rain. When the first sheets of "gloom" cover the sky, my mind is clouded and a layer of naïvety and happiness coats my brain, deleting every bit of sadness that I've ever felt. And even now, as I parade through the bullets of rain, wearing clothes that will not prevent, but rather promote, a vicious cold, I feel limitless, immeasurable, everlasting, and infinite. Oh, how delighted I'd be to see a flicker of lightning or hear a rumble of thunder. I have never been a girl who loves the sunshine, ironic as that is. I would love to move to Seattle, Washington, where it rains for 9 months out of the year. Rain is the most beautiful of all weather patterns. Snow, sunshine, hail, wind; nothing compares to the grace and the delicate movement of rain. I'm lucky enough to have the room with the end of the gutters; this allows me to hear the rain at the highest volume throughout the night. Rain gives me a feeling of boundless hope, and, in my eyes, raindrops shine brighter than the sun. 

Life in Yellow

Yellow is my favorite color; that's true. But, to me, it signifies happiness. It signifies belief, hope, faith, miracles, etc. When I'm so happy, I could cry? I feel yellow inside. I feel a surge of love flow through every vein in my body, and I feel bright & smiley & yellow. Has that ever happened to you? Have you ever gotten that smile? The one where you have to push your cheeks together to force the smile off of your face? I feel that sometimes. To be quite honest, I'm generally like that. I want to write a song or record an album and title it 'Life in Yellow,' because it's just the way I live. So many things make me happy:

Pandas
Gloomy weather/Rain
Sunflowers & Daisies!
the number 4, strangely enough..
Seattle, Washington
East Coast :)

My family

Theater & Singing

And allllll of my best friends :)

and maaaaany more :)

Daddy

I'm not even fully sure what I'm feeling, yet. I'm so.. upset.. I'm angry and I'm sad and I'm scared and I'm hurt and I just feel so small.. There isn't anything that I can do to fix things and it terrifies me. I'm probably going to ramble a lot in this blog, but it's because I have so many thoughts right now.  I think i'll just go through each emotion, so you get the gist.

Anger:

Dad, every single day I left a note for you begging you to stop smoking. When you're smoking, we're all smoking. I cried & I yelled & I begged. It's NOT fair! It isn't. Why should I have to suffer for what I pleaded you to stop doing?! I know it wasn't entirely smoking that caused this, but it sure didn't help. And you know how I feel about it. :(

Sad:

Daddy.. I have nightmares like this all the time, as you know. So, it hasn't fully hit me, yet, that this is all really happening. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this. You're mine.. I've cried so much over this whole situation. You and Mom mean so much to me. Losing either of you would crush us all.. You two, as a pair, are so..inspirational. I've never seen a love as strong as the one you two have. I can't imagine you not being here. I don't want to imagine you not being here.. Going to Kate's wedding, Dittle and I talked a lot about when her and I would get married. I need you to be there when I finally do get married.. I need you there for everything I do in the future. 

Fear: 

More than anything, Daddy I'm afraid.. I am so scared. I have never felt this small. Everything is happening so fast and I have absolutely no control over any of it. Each second is rushing by and it's terrifying. I can't lose you. 

I feel so little. Dad, you mean the world to me. You're such a big part of the person I am. Even having you gone for a few weeks is proving to be excruciating for me. I am at the hospital as often as I can be. You need to survive this, Dad. You're so incredible, in my eyes. The food you cook and the desserts you bake? How many times have I told you to open a restaurant?! And your embarrassingly funny jokes? "YOUR MOTHER!" "Have I given you enough to talk about!?" Daddy.. don't go. It isn't fair. I love you with all my heart, and I know you're afraid, but I am going to be there holding your hand throughout everything. God, I love you. I miss you. Come home soon, alive and well. 

Yours forever,

Belly

Anthony Fierros

Wow, you're.. incredible. Thank you for being my best friend, when I needed you most, and my boyfriend, when I couldn't stand not having you as my own. You've more than proven yourself as an amazing guy. I'm really lucky to have you and I thank God for you every night. The butterflies you give me are unbearable sometimes, but I wouldn't trade them for the world. I adore you; I adore you; I adore you. "While we're apart, don't give your heart to anyone. Don't forget who's taking you home & in whose arms you're gonna be. So Darling, save the last dance for me."

Is it Thanksgiving?

I haven't blogged in a while.. sad day. Well, today really wasn't so great. But that's all behind me now. I am so privileged and I have such an amazing life. My family is phenomenal. Seriously, I am what I am because of them. My mom, my dad, Tony, Elizabeth, Mikey..thank you so much. And my friends? Oh, gosh. Anthony, Jon, Becca, Christine, Chelsea, Zach, etc.. I am so honored to know all of you, and to have been able to perform with you all. There are no words to describe how amazing you all are. And Shanelle DeAnda.. I really don't know how to explain who she is or why nobody really knows about our friendship.. I just love and miss her so much. Also, thank you, Aiden, for teaching me that everyone and everything is yellow. God, thank you for giving me such a wonderful existence. You've given me the ability to go on stage, anytime and anywhere, and drop jaws. I am so eternally grateful, because not many people can rise above stage fright, and my life would just be soo different without theater or choir or dance. Thank you for helping me to be brave and to let myself be different and strange. Thank you for letting me be the person to coax people into trying new and interesting things, such as theater. I am so immensely grateful that you have not ever put me in a situation where I could be in grave danger. You have never led me down a path with "friends" who would force me to drink and do drugs and have sex all the time. You have given me the courage to stand up to those who try to lead me astray. I have stood up to so many people, who have belittled me and disrespected me, and I thank you forgiving me that strength. I really love myself. I'm proud of myself. You, God, have given me a life that many people beg for: family, friends, happiness, and love. I love you; thank you.

Junior year..

here I come. :)

Headache.

I have a migraine. This is not uncommon. I saw Jon & Anthony & Baylee tonight. They all came over and we watched 'A Little Princess' :) Good times...

 

Rebecca Schroeder.

Let's start at the very beginning; a very good place to start. We met in the show 'Goldirocks: The Musical.' She was in 8th grade and I was in 6th grade. I played Goldilocks and she played B.B. Bear. "You're a nice girl." "You're a nice bear. Friends?" "Friends." After the show ended, we went our separate ways, but two years later, we were both attending California High School. But we didn't become close until the summer after her graduation, which makes me sad. I suppose it was fate, though. She is such a beautiful girl. The stage is so lucky to have such a graceful and talented actress that adores it so much. Honestly, she inspires me to be a better actress. Her ambition is unbreakable, and it stuns me, sometimes. She is my twin, to the extreme! We always think the same things and our inside jokes never end. I love being around her, because we have so much fun. We laugh at really inappropriate times though. Most nights, she comes over between 12 am and 3 am and we eat Ritz Crackers and drink water, because she's allergic to everything else. We usually dwell on my Post Secret books and itching lotion, because we use that a lot. "Hands up!" :) Piggy back rides to my kitchen are a must. We leave each other a lot of videos on Facebook, because we can. My insomnia has rubbed off on her.. sorry, Twin. At the beach, she called me Twinnie, which turned into Twinkie, which became Twink, which is now Twinkie Twink. Oh, boy. We have become so close in such a short amount of time. It's barely hitting me that she's moving to Long Beach. Though I have an incredible amount of faith in her, I will miss her dearly while she's away. We're going to be pen pals and I'm basically going to live with her and the little mermaid, Ariel. :) I love Rebecca Schroeder to the ends of the Earth. She has helped me through some tough times, and I'm here to be the single thing she can rely on. She's my best friend and my hero. I look up to her. She truly shines and I can't wait to see what beauty she brings to the world.

Ended summer with a bang..

As you know, summer is being temporarily replaced by fall, winter, and spring. Today, was the absolute best day I had all summer long. I went to Hollywood with my friends, Becca, Jon, Anthony, and Spencer. We met one of the most amazing actresses, Lea Michele. She is such a gorgeous person, inside and out. She is one of my biggest theatrical inspirations. Needless to say, I adore her. She played Wendla on Broadway in 'Spring Awakening.' We sang 'Happy Birthday' to her. She gave us autographs! The whole cast of 'Glee' was amazing. I'm an intense Gleek, for sure. After we met the cast, there was a Q&A. They were hilarious :) Then, we drove back to Whittier, and we went over to the Hole residence, where a whole bunch of our friends gathered to swim and stuff. The jacuzzi was soooo fun. I like my boyfriend and best friend a lot. :) I made new friends today. I love having fun. Thank you, everyone, who helps me remain so happy.

I'm human, too.

This is rare for me, so listen closely.. I'm rather sad right now. I'm not usually a very sad person, but right now, I'm saaaad.. Pinky promises are made to be kept, you know? I don't know.. Maybe I expect too much out of people sometimes. I just wish I wouldn't be so easy to step on sometimes. I'm a good person, and I do my best to make people happy with themselves and their life. But for some reason, I seem to be the most naïve person ever. I know that I'm a uniquely happy person, and I thank God for that everyday. I live a privileged life and sometimes, I don't deserve it entirely. But, in the end, I'm a human being, who loses, and hurts, and yearns, and cries. I go through the same pain that everyone goes through. Obviously, I go through a lesser version of it, but I still feel sadness from simple things, like disappointment in the ones I love. I need people to comprehend that, because I can't always be the strong one. Sometimes, I yearn to break down and cry. It's necessary and feels good, when the circumstances are right. Two people have really stood out to me lately when it comes to cheering me up. I'm not positive that they know that it's them I'm speaking of, but I hope they know. Thank you, guys. You two understand that, for the most part, I'm always smiling and laughing at myself and life. But, when times do get tough, you never bail out, which is extremely important to me. I love you, so much. The light that shines through me, is the light I extract from you two. 

Michael.

Michael is my favorite person in the world. I love him with all my heart. I bring him everywhere with me. He is so funny, it's hard to live with him, sometimes. I absolutely adore him and I know that he will continue to impress me throughout the span of his life. He has so many hidden qualities that make me proud to say we're related. Many people say we look alike, and I secretly believe it. He has always been there for me 100%. I would, hands down, beat someone up, if they ever hurt him. For realsies. I love my little brother to the ends of the earth and I will always be here to love and protect him. I like when we hold hands :) I feel like his big sister, even though he's 2 inches taller than me.. We make youtube videos a lot. He's my partner in hilarity. Oh yeah, he sleepwalks..

Tuesdays

Tuesdays are my favorite day of the week. There is nothing, in particular, I like about them. I just do. But, what I do not like about today is, I'm procrastinating. BUT, I did finish book #1 for school. :) 8 days until the beginning of my junior year. I have been listening to a lot of 'Meet Me in St. Louis' lately. I sure hope that tonight, I can go to girls night! Here is my agenda for the week: Today, girls night at the Hole residence. Wednesday, Coraline rehearsal and hopefully, brownie making with Anthony. Thursday, the bonfire!! Friday, meeting Glee. Saturday, watching the camp performance with Becca. My Twin, Becca is moving out Saturday/: I'll miss her so dearly, but we're going to write letters and have sleepovers, so I'll be alright. She's going to do so amazing in college. I'm proud of her. I am sooooo excited for the bonfire, because it's the first time I'll be going to the beach all summer! How sad is that? Super sad, thats how sad. My little brother will be joining my friends and I. :) He's my favorite. "Tough times never last, but tough people do."